(As Liesal) Hello again. I promised myself that I would only write in you if I really needed to channel my emotions, as I have limited amounts of paper. Well, this is one of those times. The emotions I am currently feeling are guilt and regret. I know that our country is currently split at a crossroad, and lots of people are losing services, money, and belongings, in order to save money. Molching, is a small town, but I think if we are going to survive this war, we need to function as a unit. At least that's what Papa says. Anyways, it seems like our town doesn't share the same thoughts as Papa and I. Case and point, being this afternoon. When I was on my daily laundry route today, I stopped by the mayors house again to read my current novel (which I was so excited for). To my surprise, they told me that they wouldn't need my families services any longer. If someone knows me well, they would know that when someone rejects me, I usually deal by means of yelling or anger, and this is precisely what I did. I yelled and screamed and turned down their offer to let me read in their library. I was just starting to like that couple too. Anyways, on my way home, I felt a pit starting to form in my stomach. Mama says its just hunger, but I know this feeling cuts deeper than a mere craving for bread. I went over to Rudy's to ask what it was, and he said guilt. This is when you do something bad, and all of a sudden regret it. I felt two different forms of guilt. First, for yelling at the Mayor and his wife. (I was also sad because I couldn't use their library anymore.) Second, for losing a customer for Mama, especially during hard times for our family, made me feel pretty guilty. Anyways, I just needed to get this off my chest, and I think I will apologize as soon as my anger with the Mayor's wife fades. Well, hopefully the next time I write in you, my emotions will be the opposite of what I am feeling now.
Love Liesal.
Love Liesal.